Sunday, October 12, 2008

the haves and nots

in swissland, i have the following

1) my own place!!! and i am glad i do...
2) the space, the VAST green fields, the mountains.
3) great weather with 4 seasons
4) once in a while adventures
5) unlimited freedom

in singapore i have the following
1) family with my nephew and niece!
2) a bunch of frens i can hang out with

i realised it is just how i deal with it.
haha...i realiesd i can make frens easily but here, it is not easy to maintain as much.

but it takes time i guess...

i wonder what happens when i go back singapore. can i GET used to it?
i am just wondering...

Monday, September 29, 2008

26ed!

maybe it is a balance of enjoying life like, coffee, shopping girls talk, make up, dress up, do watever u like for me is dancing, go out with a few frnes who i find really fun to hang out, do exhilarating or death defying activities.

then comes rships which are deeply demanding, mind boggling, with swinging emotions, irritatingly irrational obligations, abyssal intolerance, inconclusive assumptions with incomprensible actions coupling ineptly ineffective communication...

but with just one simple sweep of love and faltering fleeting happiness, all vanished, leaving just 2 pairs of loving eyes and senselessly sensational touch.


Sorry hahaha that was for joanna...boredom struck and your eternal soul just cant bear the thought that it is just a remnant of a big bang and seemingly constantly finding its anti energy so it can cancel itself out without being reborn in a pig or a tree, therefore it wants to keep its thoughts somewhere...in this everyhting which turns out just as nothing....

so y bother.
hahaha

i am just bored.
and damn...i just realised my possibility to marry a german is dead!

argh...
hahha this is so funny!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

i think i am starting to feel it. dun ask me why
i wish i can come home to it.

okay...
i will just do it...

maybe it is time...

and i just ask heavens to provide me the luck, fate and faith.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Singapore needs more babies!

sitting in swissland, i find things really fasincating that has happened back in sg.

i remembered that i got back in august for just a short week and i noticed that most frens are very attached and happy.
so i went for a like jc gathering for me and jo and we are very amused how EVERY1 is talking about rship and marriages!!!! soon enough..it will be about babies and kids...*gasp*

it was pretty amusing and nice actually to find all my close frens getting hitched with pple they want to start a long term rship but when the attention turned into the single, available me...it was funny and irritating at the same time!...
so i told jo, i wish i was back in swissland where NO 1 actuallz bothers about it!!! haha..no 1 has EVER asked me if i was even attached....

and now listening to our PM national rally about babies and reading the article on channelnewsasia...
hahaha...i am thinking how hilarious this whole thing that ur nation father is asking u to get married and have babies!!!! i am really tickled by all these...
hahaha...

and now he is tlaking about about indians being matchmaked...like my uni fren who was matchmaked and is very in love with his wife and vice versa and all
hahaha
and he went to the extent to say. maybe PA (my dad is still in this organisation) should promote parental matchmaking *gasp*...am i just going to be matchmaked by my parents!!!!!!!

hahahaha...seriously he is really very very humourous.

god..i rather just propose to close guy frens and get hitched..hahaha
tell me about love...let me find the man who will love me and i wil love him..
hahahahahahahaa....
wah..love the person u marry..how i wish!!!!!!!!

by the way let me cut the article and find myself LOL again hahahaha


The return of the matchmaker
By Leong Wee Kiat, TODAY | Posted: 18 August 2008 1025 hrs


SINGAPORE: In 10 years’ time, Singaporeans may not remember today’s inflation rate. What will, however, continue to occupy the minds of the Government and citizens: How Singapore can have more babies.

Making this point in his Mandarin National Day Rally speech, Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong said the problem of a low total fertility rate (TFR) is especially acute for the Chinese community, which at 1.14 is lower than the national TFR of 1.29 and the replacement level of 2.1.

“In other words, out of the husband and wife, only one of the two will be replaced,” he said. “So, the population will be halved. In another generation, out of four old people, only one baby. After a few generations, no more to reduce.”

Some East Asian societies have lower birthrates than Singapore, and there are powerful changes sweeping through these Confucian societies. “In the old days, the men were the masters of the households, and they even take three or four wives. That was widely accepted and something that must be done. Otherwise, you may have some problems.

“Singapore was also the same, even up to the ’50s and ’60s. It was not legal, but it happened. But that era has gone. The modern-day women expects equality,” said Mr Lee.

While the modern woman has moved on — some of them “too fast” — some Singapore men have not changed their mindsets quickly enough, he said.

(i find this really true..i feel i am one of the girls....again...so wat am i to do? find angmoh??? but somehow..i cant help to think about my mums words when my relatives teased her about me finding a swissman while i am here...i prefer a chinese...it is better culturally..and gosh..somehow i agree with her and i do not want her not able to communicate with him too...it is so sad...coz i wish i can find a good man who treats her like a good son...dun ask me why!!!)

The Prime Minister recounted the tale of a single man looking for a wife. The man reportedly told a marriage bureau that he wanted a woman who was independent and doing well in her career. What else do you need, asked the marriage bureau? His response: “She must also be absolutely submissive and obedient!” said Mr Lee, to laughter from the audience. “The problem is where to find such women.”

(now now...i think this is painful..how to find some1 like my dad!!!! he is rare specimen...and pls la...we cant be perfect WOMEN!!!)

Citing another anecdote of three young Beijing women, he recounted how they told an interviewer they would choose their job over a boyfriend or fiance.

Male or female, young people need to take “a realistic view” towards marriage and find the right balance with their career, said Mr Lee. Otherwise, they might miss out on chances at love and happiness, and the best window to have children.

Some Singaporeans, he noted, are marrying later — not because they want to wait, but because it is difficult for them to find the right partner. “Perhaps their social circles were too narrow. They were too busy in work. Or, perhaps, they were not good at chasing the opposite sex.”

(gosh looking at this reminds me of Ivans story of how he was tricked into going this course whereby they were matchmaking MOE teachers and teaching how u actually date!? and promoting how unbalanced single life is....tell me about it...thanks ah!!!)

While today’s young people may not warm to the idea of arranged marriages, perhaps the solution lies in getting “a modern-day matchmaker”.

In Beijing, for example, Mr Lee said thousands of parents secretly go to “Parental Matchmaking Sessions” to find suitable partners for their children, where they exchange photos and educational qualifications on their children, and take down phone numbers.

“We do not have Parental Matchmaking Sessions in Singapore. I think our People’s Association should consider organising similar sessions,” he said. A suggestion that drew applause from the audience.

(oh no...do i have to....gosh..i do wnat to get married..but matchmaking..okay..when i turn into a rock rather!!!! imagine my mum goes...eh...girl ah. got my frens son not bad la..u wnat to meet him?! my god...hahahahahaha...actually that will be interesting!!!!!!...thinking of this i really luffed and luffed...and my dad is still in PA....*eyeballs enlarging*)

Mr Lee urged parents to encourage their children in a sensitive manner, and asked the younger folk to take this matter seriously.

“Of course, these are personal problems, and you must work hard at it. The Government will only work at the side, but we will try to facilitate,” he said.


hahahaa after all these, and thinking so much while i am alone and away from home
i have to admit..it can be lonely and all. but i guess at the age of 25yr (+11 months) old...with thinking maybe career would be more comforting than to wait for love to drop from sky, maybe in the end, i have to go for matchmaking like my frens are doing to me now...
somehow, the prospect is really amusing and funny, but it takes just tat moment of chemistry to happen is so hard...hahahahaha

i think i will just put myself on ebay and let pple auction me hahaha....

or i will just propose to the guy frens whom i thot, might just be okay to stay with for the rest of the life together...

gosh..JOANNA: would u marry me???!!!!
hahahahahaha....

i am so tickled ( and high)
i sometimes wonder if i intimidate sg men just because i would love to listen to views on philosophy, politics and random general knowledge stuff.
maybe in the end, it is just me, huihui haha
i am high from rose wine..
*BLURP*

Monday, July 7, 2008

travelling

i am travelling on sat!! lalalala
disappearing for 2 weeks...
and i need to call parents.

and i am so going to watch this romance movie heehee...in the mood...
pmsing

anyhow...stupid chua din mention that he would be gone to bahrain!!!!
but watever it is i am happy for him and i think it will be a great break for him.
working with pple who arent so bitchy and he should be able to show off wat he has.

and i think he will do well...all the best chua!!
and yes i am waiting for u to drop by swissland!!!!
and i will find u in bahrain!!!!

i think theres always great sunshine after the rain.
jsut like today.
it was cold and miserable and now, it is bright and sunny with lovely blue sky and white fluffy clouds.

heehee trying to keep positive and men in trees is sooo funny hahahahahaaha

gosh...
putting a church bell on top of the HOUSE?
how is ti like to be in alaska....i missed in 5 yrs ago...(gosh!!!) i would love to have it soon...

and i swear i must learn other dances when i get back

and i must get to my german!! gosh...i dun think it is happening in office.
i ahve to go and hunt it myself.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

a minute space for a huge thought in eternity

i couldnt spare even just a split second not doing something else at work.

actually, i am just getting frustrated with the Datango program, hanging on me every frozen window

like it is going to hang the whole OS.

reading economist and fortune has allowed me to divert my undying frustration from maths or

engineering to literature.

how? that doesnt really matter. it is a form of relaxation, coupling with enhancing my inadequate

vocabulary.

learnt a few really important words for the past week

1) self deprecating
2) intransigence
3) profligate and along with it, prodigal.
4) sagacious

i like these words very much. they are words i can use often! ahaha...

i love reading random articles.
they help to further your depth and widen length of vision.

ah...

it was how i also stumbled upon www.eharmony.com.
and got "matched" to 2 random guys from singapore based on my character, needs and wants.

haha...i am so utterly amused that i actually thought, their analysis on my character based on the half

an hour questionaire was skewed by my answers of whom i would love to be and not some1 i already

am.

to strive towards perfection is reality.
to reach it, is indeed utopia.

(and strive towards perfection is my primary school motto,
to Master, to Grow and to Serve is MGS motto)

by the way, while travelling to lugano on the train, i heard, after listening it umpteen times, a different

dimension of stephanie sun song.

WO BU AI music arrangement on the 1st verse is pretty amazing. (i am not talking about the prelude).
beginning with the strumming of guitar as the bass, separate simple melody (to note, i found it to be a

melody and not accompaniment) of the piano, completing every phrase of the 1st verse, after the lyrics.
syncopation on the piano score just melts into the whole song.

however the piano is heavily covered 2nd verse onwards....
haha...just love how musical instruments can add to your dull life.
emotions through tools such as the piano, the body, etc add so much colour and meaning that no

clothes and bags could do hahaha....

by the way, whoever has the piano score, pls pls send to me
i think i will seek chee yuen's help!

Thursday, May 29, 2008

在这不完美的世界里,找到自己完美的一刻。
在这个完美的一刻里,我找到了你。

after listening to 说不出的告别,feel so sad over the song...thus the optimism struck me and thot of the above...

Anyhow i know i will have a great june!!

this weekend is shaowei and ms kok ting ting (who will be here for 4 months)
and then my parents will be here on sunday!!!! i am so happy!!
it has been 3 months since i last saw them.
haha...can see them finally!
and will be travelling for the rest of the june weekends.
gosh..and then i will have to go spain/portugal?paris?brussels, back home for a week...
after which, will be a huge ?, but might be travelling with shao to germany..i hope!!!

haha i am sure these 2 months will be hectic with work (tons of testing for me)and travelling!

i am soaking in happiness at the moment and i have to get interlaken photos sorted out. hahaha....

guten nacht!